Hey Bookworms, I want to be serious for a bit (don’t laugh.. I can be serious — or at least fake it) Anyway, it might be that the end of the year is approaching and it’s natural to look back on things and reflect..
When I started this blog 5 years ago (I’m counting the year from hell even I wasn’t as productive) I was so full of plans and ideas of how it was going to go, how I was going to grow it and make it my own, easy peasy.. And, now that I’m getting close to having a 1000 posts published (milestone right there), I realized I was so clueless…
It’s been a journey… easy peasy my butt.. It’s been work (one that I enjoy and that helps me to keep sane through bad times) but really hard work and it’s unavoidably filled with those annoying little voices that tell you “is it worth it?”.
You see yourself getting stuck in terms of followers and even if you don’t fret to much about it and keep doing your thing.. it hits you from time to time, what am I doing wrong?.. It’s sad to see so many bloggers friends disappear.. or just move along to greener pastures sort of speak.. while you are left wondering should I keep this up? Blogging has changed so much in the past few years, there’s so many new outlets to let your voice out, that it feels as if you are screaming into a void sometimes.
That’s when you remember all you have found through this little outlet, Friends and a community… I’m truly blessed in that regard.. I don’t have horror stories from authors bullying or stalking me after I posted an unflattering review of their work, or make an unintentional joke about some plot point… Not at all, I have been lucky to come across awesome people… which is why I still enjoy helping them spread the word on their work as best I can.
I’m grateful of the friends I have made (fellow Bloggers) that have helped me out through one of the most brutal times of my life… and I’m mind blown with their support… each and everyone is truly appreciated. It’s a bit bittersweet because this community is a treasure trove and sometimes I can’t take part enough.. beyond answering comments here and there… It feels like you are letting them down somehow — I know it’s not exactly like that but the feeling remains.
As I’m writing this I realized that it’s not quite a discussion but a cathartic piece I wanted to share, if any of you feel a bit like this or has felt like this then at least there’s strength in numbers and we can support each other through this little hiccups
… I’m not leaving the blog despite of my little insecurities .. in fact I still have plans to try new things with it as best I can with my current situation.. Some I will share on future less dark posts..
To finnish this rambling I just want to say thank you, to all that follow me, read, share and enjoy my kind of crazy.. It’s great to know you are out there, and that tiny voices scream back from the void — That sounded creepy as hell…
If you want to help me keep on creating content and making you at least smile a bit with my quirky posts and ranty opinions just visit my Ko-fi page or Paypal.me/cbookramblings and support my work..
As Always
Happy Reading
Chelle's Book Ramblings 
It can be hard sometimes. For me I went into blogging not expecting anything and honestly I still don’t. I blog for me. Yes having followers to talk to makes it even better but I think doing it for me first has helped me to not worry about when my posts don’t get much traction and it helped me to continue to do it and eventually to grow my followers. My advice would be if you love it continue to do it for you and the rest will come. It might take a while but it will happen.
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